After sending my insurance information to the new place, within four to five business days I got an e-mail back with appointments scheduled for a CT Scan, Medical Eval., and CI Eval. – all approved by my insurance company. WOW. The appointments are all scheduled on the 27 and 28, a week from today. So wish me luck.
I’m still having a negative view on the implant. In the beginning of this whole thing, I was excited about hearing things. Now, not so much. I do well with my one hearing aid. I can understand voices and environmental sounds pretty well. It’s not like I can’t hear anything. Is a CI really going to be that much better? Or are the people who are so happy with the CI, hearing at the same level as what I hear now?
With hearing people, I feel so frustrated. I often think they’re lazy, they don’t care to get to know me, they don’t care to know how to try, they don’t try. Why should I try? I’ve tried my whole life, and I’m still trying. I don’t get much of a reward for it. This worries me more and more lately. I feel so at ease, so at home using sign language. I feel myself. Trying to have a verbal conversation with people makes me feel awkward. My husband would argue that it’s not the people who make me feel at home (people who know sign versus people who don’t know sign) but the fact that I love to communicate and that when I can’t do it proficiently I feel frustrated. I’m trying to keep my focus there, but it’s been hard to lately.